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#428870 - 03/24/13 01:44 AM Son
ThisMan Offline

Registered: 01/23/13
Posts: 778
Loc: upper south
I see myself in you
your hair is mine
dark, shiny, wavy,
your brown eyes are mine
dark, fearsome, gentle

Your mannerisms are mine
confident, self-assured
easy- going

The build of your body
the size of your hands
the shape of your face

...and I swell with pride

I see myself in you
but my experience
my betrayal by man
must never be yours

The pain of my heart
the filth of my memories
I shall not share
with you today

And I fear for you,
my son
so much like me
so beautiful in God's hand
so fragile on this earth

My first born
my serious one
I watch over you
pleased to see you grow
-but afraid for you

Protecting you
I want to share my fears
I want to say
"it happened to Dad, be careful- trust not"
but I don't

I want to take your hand
and run with you toward

I want to hold you back
to enjoy the childhood
I didn't know

But I can't

So I watch
...always watch

Once upon a time between the CSA and the ASA, I was a husband, a dad- a family man. I was a good man- a happy man. I had written this as a private piece to my oldest son. I may not have been so successful in protecting myself in later years, but I did take care of my sons.
For now we see through a glass, darkly.

#428875 - 03/24/13 02:19 AM Re: Son [Re: ThisMan]
SoccerStar Offline

Registered: 10/15/12
Posts: 929

That's one of the best things any of us can hope for.

My story

"Don't think it hasn't been a little slice of Heaven just because it hasn't!" --Bugs Bunny

#428923 - 03/24/13 05:26 PM Re: Son [Re: ThisMan]
SamV Offline

Registered: 12/13/09
Posts: 5971
Loc: Sunnny, South East USA
I feel/share this frustration and solace ThisMan, you did your best, it IS enough.
MaleSurvivor Moderator Emeritus 2012 - 2014

#429484 - 03/29/13 06:49 PM Re: Son [Re: ThisMan]
bodyguard8367 Offline

Registered: 05/16/12
Posts: 1159
Loc: ""

Edited by bodyguard8367 (02/27/14 02:57 AM)

#429488 - 03/29/13 07:06 PM Re: Son [Re: ThisMan]

Registered: 08/31/11
Posts: 3790
Excellent. Your concerns for the son are inspirational.


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