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#428903 - 03/24/13 03:31 PM Is this normal?
Suwanee Offline
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Edited by Suwanee (02/26/16 03:51 PM)
I've got this life
And the will to show
I will always be
Better than before


#428905 - 03/24/13 03:52 PM Re: Is this normal? [Re: Suwanee]
cant_remember Offline

Registered: 02/26/05
Posts: 1070

I think recovery comes in quantum leaps. There doesn't seem to be any progress until you are able to step back, as you do here, and reflect on where you started and where you are now.

I think uneven progress is the name of the game, especially since there is no road map for recovery and we are all basically groping around in the dark looking for the lost pieces of ourselves with little to no help from anyone else.

As for your fear response, it seems like a good candidate for EMDR work. If you haven't talked with your T about EMDR, maybe now is the right time.

I'll be just fine and dandy
Lord, it's like a hard candy Christmas
I'm barely getting through tomorrow
But I won't let sorrow get me way down.

#428911 - 03/24/13 04:03 PM Re: Is this normal? [Re: Suwanee]
traveler Offline

Registered: 02/07/06
Posts: 4196
Loc: resettling in NE Ohio
hey, Will!

i think you are asking a reasonable question - but i am not sure there is such a thing as "normal" when it comes to our reactions and ways of dealing with the aftermath of CSA. it seems to me that it is a case of "anything goes" - from what i have seen.

so - yeah - i guess having irregular or chaotic spurts of progress or moving ahead at uneven intervals in different areas is probly a pretty typical way to experience it.

it would be nice if it was more predictable or you could somehow plot it or plan it or something. but look - what happened to us was outside the rational and normal - so our reactions to it are going to be characterized in the same way - and the process of dealing with and repairing the damage is going to be the same way.

i have found that the best approach for me is to work on whatever seems to be exerting the most pressure at the moment - not try to organize it or control it. sort of go with the flow. my subconscious seems to know what i need to do next. that is very opposite to the way i have usually lived my life. i typically like to have lots more control - but it doesn't seem to work that way in this situation. i am learning to be OK with that.

try not to worry about it.
someone else may give you a totally different answer -
and they would be right, too.
we are all unique - that is the one thing we all have in common.

How long, LORD, must I call for help, but you do not listen?
Or cry out to you, “Violence!” but you do not save?
Why do you make me look at injustice?
Why do you tolerate wrongdoing?...
Therefore the law is paralyzed, and justice never prevails....
Habakkuk 1:2-3


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