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#427791 - 03/11/13 09:31 PM Getting fixed
jcm Offline

Registered: 05/26/09
Posts: 37
Loc: Los Angeles, CA

I took a huge step and started seeing guys. Hooking up, dating, hanging out, whatever. I don't know if that was a good thing but I have became obsessed with getting attention from guys. I fell for this one guy, anyway, fast forward 8 weeks and he only wants to be friends. This just happened yesterday and it sent me into a frenzy. I haven't eaten, can't stop thinking extremely negative thoughts and can't see getting past this.

This whole situation just brought me into a really bad depression that I don't want to be in. But I can't see the light at the end of the tunell.

In my life I have 95% of everything I ever could have wanted to achieve and get I feel so empty and worthless.

I need help and at the same time I don't want it. Ughhhhhhhuu this sucks.

#427822 - 03/12/13 12:36 AM Re: Getting fixed [Re: jcm]
Publius Offline

Registered: 03/13/12
Posts: 444
Loc: OH
God I know that feeling man. Awhile back I took the initiative and called up a young woman I had had my eye on for some time. The dates went fine but eventually I got the "friends talk" as well. It's already hard enough in general to get over something like that but I think our CSA exacerbates the negative thoughts and feelings. For survivors there's just a lot more at stake when it comes to relationships and romance in particular. Heartbreak sucks and nothing is going to change what is a perfectly normal albeit unpleasant experience. Do you have any friends nearby that you can hang out with and talk about it? What do you think comprises that other 5 percent?
"Life is like this dark tunnel. You may not always see the light at the end of the tunnel, but if you keep moving, you will come to a better place." ~ General Iroh


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