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#42729 - 02/11/03 07:26 PM Some good news (?)
ecb Offline

Registered: 02/04/03
Posts: 205
I know that this may sound a bit lame, but last night a friend of mine helped me to find within myself the lost little boy who I locked away so many years ago. (Inner child I guess, but I'm not particularly fond of that term)

She told me that she had seen him a little the night when I told her about the abuse, and it was like an epiphany. I hadn't even really known he was there.

In my minds eye, we just held one another and cried, and cried and I told the terrified little boy that it was not his fault.

It was incredibly cathardic, and christ it fucking hurt, but I think it was a definate step forward.

Just venting a little and sharing a little good news on my personal front. Thanks for listeneing.

#42730 - 02/11/03 07:58 PM Re: Some good news (?)
RickL Offline

Registered: 03/16/02
Posts: 84
Loc: Oregon
It is excellent news, ECB, and it's an area I've been focusing on recently. After 5 years of my therapist badgering me to be a parent to my inner child, I had some break-throughs last week myself. They were basically visualizations that carried over into the feeling part of me--and that was both exciting and new, and flooded my eyes with tears also.

Of course, recovery is not a straight line, and I feel a bit of falling back the last few days. But that does not diminish the incredible epiphany of the experience. It means I can see/feel/converse with him again. I want to forge of new pattern of caring for that little guy!

Thanks for your sharing and keep up the good work!



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