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#426419 - 02/25/13 05:26 PM I Hate It When I Whine
Justnotright Offline

Registered: 02/10/13
Posts: 19
Loc: Mid-Michigan

By JustNotRight

I want to cry, but donít
I donít want to feel, but I do
I drink to be numb, Iím over the rum
I donít want to live, but I do
I hurt all the time
I suffer his crime
The pain is only mine

I hate when I whine

I want all to be fine
Perhaps if I dine
Iíve become larger than swine
If only I had a spine
Iíd confront, but wonít
Itís useless I feel
Heíd lie, cheat and steal
To avoid the truth, to his last tooth
I hate him for sure, if only there was a cure

I hate when I whine

I want to do my best, but fall short Ďcause my dad molest
I feel gross and quite vile
If only it would last a SHORT while
And be gone
I want to live well beyond
But robbed of so much
I need a crutch

I hate when I whine

I struggle from day to day
I havenít the words to say
All that was right, has turned all gray
And no one speaks to me
Ďcause Iím gay

I hate when I whine

Bad dreams are all that I have
I drink rum like it was a salve
I hate what Iíve become
While he thrives in his kingdom
I hate my dad more each day
Itís what makes me pre-maturely gray

I hope each and every day
He hears the haunt of what he did
The days he killed his kid
By molesting, is what he did
How am I to live
When all I have to give
Is pain and hurt and simple dirt
Some days I feel I should wear a shirt
That still wonít make it right
For the things he did, late at night

I hate when I whine

My cousin and he, should make a guilty plea
And rot Ė eternal in jail
Iím sure heíll say he doesnít remember
How he used a family member
To do what he liked
To a five-year old tike
And shared me, my cousin he liked

I hate when I whine

The cousin is long gone
Died from the sex that heíd done
AIDS got the guy
That played and then died
I hate that heís gone but donít know why
Images of both, my cousin and father as host
Having sex with me (and each other)
Torment me the most
I hate when I whine

Iíve had days I wished for a twin brother
So we could discuss each with the other
The trouble with living and hiding
All the while on inside Iím dying.
If only I had someone for confiding
I would spend less time ďIím goodĒ
Ďcause thatís lying.

I hate when I whine

All I want (right now) seems dumb
Ďcause I only want to be numb
I guess Iíll have more rum
Good night
Donít wake me
Ďcause I donít like me

I hate it when I whine
If you can't take a joke, you need a nap. Me.

#426477 - 02/26/13 01:09 AM Re: I Hate It When I Whine [Re: Justnotright]
bodyguard8367 Offline

Registered: 05/16/12
Posts: 1159
Loc: ""

Edited by bodyguard8367 (02/27/14 02:15 AM)
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