i am glad you are here, even though the reason isn't the best circumstances. i have found this site to be a safe and comfortable place to talk to others of like minds.
There is no rush to do anything here. Take your time and get acquainted with the site and what it has to offer. Post when you feel you are ready.
If you cannot control what happens to you, you can control your attitude toward what happens to you, and in that, you will be mastering change rather than allowing it to master you.
~ adapted from: Sri Ram