This time for some reason I chose to acknowledge this and say enough is enough STOP getting so carried away with this . It was a Mistake and EVERY ONE makes mistakes . I am no different than anyone else . This has been tied to my abuse for far to long and it is time to just take a stand and realize everything is not tied to abuse this is just life .
I no separating abuse from life is very difficult but when I realized I am not in survivor mode any longer . This is something that is just everyday life and to stop tying everything to abuse .
I refuse to allow this feeling to overcome me and denounce it . Because I am worthy , I can not beat myself up any longer for being human that is that
great insight - and a giant step, NLT! sounds like a mature overcomer instead of a victim.
that scenario sounds so familiar to me. one little thing goes wrong - and i have plunged into total self-condemnation and become my own mental, emotional and verbal abuser. it's like there is no middle ground - no shades of grey for us - it is all either good - or it couldn't get any worse. we don't cut ourselves any slack.
yeah - we hold ourselves to a higher standard than "normal" people - but we are human and allowed to fail, too. that's what grace and forgiveness are all about. sometimes those are really hard to apply to ourselves.
NO - this mistake was not tied to abuse - but your reaction to it was. more importantly though - your recognition and breaking of the habit - is about HEALING!
PS - though i'm sorry you missed the 25% bonus - this lesson may well be worth even more than that in the long run!