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#417589 - 11/28/12 10:58 PM changing
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Registered: 02/07/06
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Loc: settling in the USA again
I used to put on a game face
to meet the world.
Like Eleanor Rigby,
I kept it by the door
so I could grab it
every time I went out.
But now I find my own features
have been too long behind that mask;
They find it hard to relax and soften,
to adapt to the changes,
to adopt the appropriate responses
to events and conversations,
thoughts and feelings.
I want to change the face I wear,
the way I change my mind.
I want to change my self-image,
the way I change my clothes.
I want to change my self,
the way I change the channels on the TV.
Instead – I am stuck – undecided,
half-dressed, between channels.
Changing –
but uncertain of the outcome…

- Lee
11 29 12
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#418156 - 12/04/12 11:49 AM Re: changing [Re: traveler]
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Loc: South-East Europe
Please don' change anything Lee, modern TV is so boring wink
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#418350 - 12/06/12 04:51 AM Re: changing [Re: traveler]
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don't worry, Pero - i won't change so much that you can't recognize me. just look for the kid dragging a big sword and a giant's bloody head around.
wink
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#418354 - 12/06/12 07:56 AM Re: changing [Re: traveler]
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That would be scene Lee, lol
I've already expected some tattoos too wink

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#496137 - 03/03/16 01:23 AM Re: changing [Re: traveler]
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Registered: 09/27/03
Posts: 6287
Loc: 𝒪 𝒦anada
変に変わる
丸に回る

after i read your poem i got to thinking, and i realized that changing was not so much about making it happen, but rather letting it happen... naturally. healing and evolution have a lot in common... they both require trial & error + time & patience.


wrote you this poem ↔ traveler ⇆
thanks for the inspiration smile



HEN NI KAWARU STRANGELY CHANGING
Originally Posted By: victor-victim

change is inevitable,
needed and necessary.
it's unavoidable,
painful and scary!
 maru ni mawaru. spinning in circles= 丸に回る
it can come in an instant,
in waves or in stages.
change is a constant!
we must be courageous.
 hen ni kawaru. strangely changing=変に変わる




† poet's note ♪
the kanji symbol/title can be read two ways in japanese
the onyomi reading is "HEN NI" meaning "STRANGELY" and the kunyomi reading is "KAWARU" which means "CHANGING"
"MARU NI MAWARU" translates to "SPINNING IN CIRCLES" but it can also mean "REVOLVING IN PERFECTION"
i suppose that to change is to become different or strange
inspired by and dedicated to brother survivor traveler



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#496143 - 03/03/16 02:54 AM Re: changing [Re: traveler]
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Registered: 11/29/10
Posts: 814
Loc: American South
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