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#418148 - 12/04/12 10:12 AM Lost boy
peroperic2009 Offline

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Registered: 10/09/11
Posts: 3801
Loc: South-East Europe
Why are you here? I heard question

I知 not sure
I have some issues
But nothing specific

She looked trough me:
You are very lonely
It is kind of wasteland
No one alive is there
Do you feel lonely?

Well I've never been alone in my life
I've grown with constant company
There were always me and my twin
Two of us as one being
Or me and my sis
Or many other kids
Physically I致e never been alone

Where are all they now?
Well my mum died when I was fourteen
My bro is abroad
My sister is abroad
And my father is abroad
I'm alone in this city; I can add that I知 alone in this country
Yes now when I say I'm feeling very lonely
But it is nothing recent
I was six years old boy
Weather was beautiful, sunny with blue sky
I知 going out, to play with my friend
We are walking to nearby hill
I love view on city from above
I love to feel lost when viewing distant mountains
Well that was day when he offered me other kind of game

He put me on the ground
We didn稚 talk much
He is laying on me
And imitate making love
I知 feeling strange and lost
My body reacts with excitement
I know that is wrong
I feel shame and guilt
I don稚 have many memories left
Just sense of emptiness on my way back
At one point between top of the hill and nearby city
At that point I stuck forever
Not able to tell what has happened
Not able to ask for help
Not able to ask for hope
Not able to cry

It is cursed place
From time to time, even now,
thirty years later, I知 still standing there
and waiting in despair and loneliness
Forever lost between life and death
And feeling that no one can come near
I can稚 ask anything beside:

How come that lost boy still believes that everything will be alright?
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#418151 - 12/04/12 10:51 AM Re: Lost boy [Re: peroperic2009]
cant_remember Offline
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Registered: 02/26/05
Posts: 1063
Good poem, Pero.

Even lost boys have the right to think that things might turn out OK.

Cant
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But he grew old, this knight so bold / And upon his heart a shadow / Fell as he found no spot on the ground / That looked like El Dorado.

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#475111 - 01/14/15 06:43 PM Re: Lost boy [Re: peroperic2009]
victor-victim Offline


Registered: 09/27/03
Posts: 6338
Loc: 搨ェ 搨ヲanada
lost but not gone.
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#475118 - 01/14/15 07:30 PM Re: Lost boy [Re: peroperic2009]
Shyshark Offline


Registered: 10/30/12
Posts: 761
Loc: Canada
This is so good!
My story is a little different ... but what does that matter?
Not at all.
I understand every word you've said.
If we could sit together ... face to face ...
you looking into my eyes ... would be like looking into a mirror.
I can't hold you and we can't wipe each others tears away ...
but I can do this ...

((((((( pero )))))))



Edited by Shyshark (01/14/15 07:33 PM)
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#475120 - 01/14/15 07:32 PM Re: Lost boy [Re: peroperic2009]
Shyshark Offline


Registered: 10/30/12
Posts: 761
Loc: Canada
This is so good!
My story is a little different ... but what does that matter?
Not at all.
I understand every word you've said.
If we could sit together ... face to face ...
you looking into my eyes ... would be like looking into a mirror.
I can't hold you and we can't wipe each others tears away ...
but I can do this ...

((((((( pero )))))))
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Experience is a brutal teacher.

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#475121 - 01/14/15 07:33 PM Re: Lost boy [Re: peroperic2009]
Shyshark Offline


Registered: 10/30/12
Posts: 761
Loc: Canada
ooops ... sorry
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