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#417436 - 11/28/12 12:44 AM Thank you Brothers
Magellan Offline
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Registered: 01/01/11
Posts: 1595
Loc: California
Thank you for the messages of hope in PM and on this forum.

I saw my Dr. today and explained what was going on, and my previous experience of using low grade testosterone to alleviate anxiety and depression and he wrote me a up a prescription. I was very surprised that he was so willing to work with me on this without any reservation.

Got the patch an hour ago, and already am starting to notice a difference in my mood, and physiological change (I've had a tense muscle in my left butt cheek for as long as I can remember, and when I was on testosterone before, the muscle finally relaxed. I just now noticed that less than an hour of putting the patch on, the muscle has relaxed).

Feeling hopeful for the first time in weeks.

Thanks for your support guys.

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#417438 - 11/28/12 12:48 AM Re: Thank you Brothers [Re: Magellan]
JayBro Offline


Registered: 11/13/12
Posts: 325
This makes me SO happy to read!! We are all there for you!! *HUGS*
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#417440 - 11/28/12 12:56 AM Re: Thank you Brothers [Re: Magellan]
traveler Offline
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Registered: 02/07/06
Posts: 4196
Loc: resettling in NE Ohio
(((((((((((( Magellan / Dillon / D ))))))))))))

oh - such a relief!
so good that you are still with us - and have support and hope!

sorry - i'm lapsing into Enlish teacher mode here -
yesterday i taught this in Brit Lit class - and thought of you:

No man is an island entire of itself; every man
is a piece of the continent, a part of the main;
if a clod be washed away by the sea, Europe
is the less, as well as if a promontory were, as
well as any manner of thy friends or of thine
own were; any man's death diminishes me,
because I am involved in mankind.
And therefore never send to know for whom
the bell tolls; it tolls for thee.
- John Donne

i was really feeling that loss - the fear that you were gone. and feeling diminished by it.
thank you for struggling through this - and overcoming the "demons" of darkness!

Lee

PS - just as your death would have been a loss for all of us,
your survival is a VICTORY for all of us!


Edited by traveler (11/28/12 01:12 AM)
Edit Reason: PS
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Or cry out to you, “Violence!” but you do not save?
Why do you make me look at injustice?
Why do you tolerate wrongdoing?...
Therefore the law is paralyzed, and justice never prevails....
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#417444 - 11/28/12 01:08 AM Re: Thank you Brothers [Re: Magellan]
seikei Offline
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Registered: 08/06/12
Posts: 94
I was really worried, but now I am exalted to hear that you're doing ok. I know its tough, and at times it seems that there is no point to...well anything...but there always is. take care.

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#417446 - 11/28/12 01:10 AM Re: Thank you Brothers [Re: Magellan]
Mountainous Buck Offline
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Registered: 12/15/09
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Loc: Minnesota
Glad you are taking care of yourself, Dillon, and sharing your story here.
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It matters where you go" Frank Turner

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#417447 - 11/28/12 01:11 AM Re: Thank you Brothers [Re: Magellan]
Jude Offline


Registered: 08/09/12
Posts: 1633
Loc: New England
Magellen,

As you often say: "YAAAAAYYYYY!"

We love you!

Jude
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Don't let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories
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#417459 - 11/28/12 02:05 AM Re: Thank you Brothers [Re: Magellan]
Farmer Boy Offline
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Registered: 08/23/12
Posts: 442
Loc: Australia
Dillon

This made my day!!!!

Hope is everything...so glad you have found yours.

I have been so worried for you - this is a HUGE relief.

Thanks for not giving up..on the world...on us..on yourself.

You ARE a beautiful creation (inside and out) - no matter what lies other may say and you might beleive.

Lee
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#417461 - 11/28/12 02:40 AM Re: Thank you Brothers [Re: Farmer Boy]
pufferfish Offline
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Registered: 02/26/08
Posts: 6875
Loc: USA
My doc has prescribed a testosterone shot in the butt once per month. I've had 3 shots so far. I'm also getting a thyroid pill every morning. The two seem to work together. After several months of this it's starting to really take effect. The testosterone shot seems to release it's effect somewhat unevenly so that on some days I feel it a lot more strongly than others.

Puffer

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#417462 - 11/28/12 02:56 AM Re: Thank you Brothers [Re: Magellan]
Magellan Offline
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Registered: 01/01/11
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Loc: California
I'd love to hear how the Test is treating your anxiety (assuming you have it) or PTSD?

I discovered that when I took it before, so many levels of tension and anxiety started melting off of my body... I had no idea how much tension I was carrying in my body until I started taking the testosterone.

I'm so glad to have a doctor who's committed to helping me resolve this in unorthodox ways (rather than sending me to a shrink and plying me with experimental psychotropics).

I'm so relieved. And thrilled. And glad. And starting to feel hopeful again.

D

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#417463 - 11/28/12 03:11 AM Re: Thank you Brothers [Re: Magellan]
Chase Eric Offline
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Registered: 10/25/10
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Just checking the boards quickly before I go to bed. I'll definitely sleep better tonight having read this. Thanks, Dillon.
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#417467 - 11/28/12 03:28 AM * [Re: Magellan]
Smalltown80sBoy Offline
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Registered: 03/26/12
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*


Edited by Smalltown80sBoy (04/29/13 05:08 PM)

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#417468 - 11/28/12 03:28 AM Re: Thank you Brothers [Re: Magellan]
Still Offline
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Registered: 02/16/07
Posts: 7011
Loc: FEMA Region 1
Good to hear!

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#417478 - 11/28/12 04:48 AM Re: Thank you Brothers [Re: Magellan]
Magellan Offline
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Loc: California
Androderm is a patch, lowest dose is 2.5mg. Since I'm within the "acceptable range" albeit on the lower end, the prescribed dose for me seems to bump me up a bit to feel less anxiety, and dare I say, start to actually feel connected to people.

I feel closer to my dog now. It's very weird.

In any case, the patch releases a constant flow of testosterone through the skin. Its much more expensive than the shot, and many insurance companies won't approve of the patch because of the cost. The shot works, but it creates a big up/down because when you get the shot, its a huge burst and then dwindles. The patch is recommended.

I'm becoming immensely grateful for my insurance plan, and thus my job that has my insurance plan, and the doctor I have who is willing to work with me to make this work for me and improve the quality of my life.

After taking my first patch 5 hours ago, I feel so much better already. And reading all the encouraging messages and PM's from all of you is just fucking awesome.

I'm so glad I found this place.

Thanks to all of you for sticking by my insanity, and encouraging me to keep pushing forward.

Forever grateful

D

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#417479 - 11/28/12 04:51 AM Re: Thank you Brothers [Re: Magellan]
JayBro Offline


Registered: 11/13/12
Posts: 325
HUGS
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#417483 - 11/28/12 07:45 AM Re: Thank you Brothers [Re: Magellan]
youthfulheart62 Offline
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Registered: 04/19/07
Posts: 94
Loc: New Jersey(exit3)
Thank you for letting me be a part of your healing process, I am going though a lot of grief right now, grieving such tremendous loss of childhood ,it is good from me

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#417490 - 11/28/12 12:07 PM Re: Thank you Brothers [Re: Magellan]
peroperic2009 Offline
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Registered: 10/09/11
Posts: 3846
Loc: South-East Europe
Wow D.,
I'm so happy when I've seen this thread and when I found that you feel better.
Hugs
((((Magellan)))) wink
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#417501 - 11/28/12 01:44 PM Re: Thank you Brothers [Re: Magellan]
Treehugger75 Offline


Registered: 02/08/12
Posts: 159
Loc: Ontario Canada
So glad the muscle has finally relaxed smile
So glad your Dr's appt was so good as well.
So glad we all support each other in those down periods.
So glad smile
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#417508 - 11/28/12 02:42 PM Re: Thank you Brothers [Re: Magellan]
Publius Offline
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Registered: 03/13/12
Posts: 444
Loc: OH
I am happy to hear you are feeling better and more hopeful Magellan!
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