Hey bro. I know I have sure felt this same way before. You are def not alone in this. I wish you the best and hope this surely doesn't happen. You are here for a reason and I hope you can overcome this feeling. Stay strong brother
Therefore put on the full armor of God, so that when the day of evil comes, you may be able to stand your ground, and after you have done everything, to stand.
Husbands, love your wives, just as Christ loved the church and gave himself up for her