You mentioned that you went out of town and had this experience. Could it be that your not being in your everyday environment released some inhibitions that you maybe find unacceptable in everyday life? Or perhaps you felt you had to go away from influence of the social context in which you live your everyday life for another reason? I would imagine that if you were motivated to hide, in some sense, what you did by going out of town, that this could be responsible for the negative feelings during and after. Not sure if this is the case. Let me say that I don't feel that what you did was wrong or bad in anyway. It matters how you feel about it though.
Just my two cents,
I see recovery as a lifelong journey rather than a final destination, a journey, though, which can have many successes along the way.
WoR Alumnus - Hope Springs, OH, October 2009
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