I'm really glad you joined this thread too.
All the therapeutic pink cloud experience in the
world ain't worth a damn if it don't work.
I need some healthy skepticism about everything,
especially as a survivor of sexual abuse who
lost faith and trust. Hard to get those back with
my eyes squeezed shut and holding my nose.
Thanks for giving me the poke I need to keep me
from faking a spiritual orgasm.
And thanks also for reminding me--Of course this
is as good as it gets!! This moment is all there
is. Past is non-existent, future is a product of
my warped imagination.
You are so right! This moment, right now is as
as good (beautiful, dramatic, scary, loving and
everything else there is) as it gets.
Because this is all there is.
Joe, the recovery theme is so good for me--the
definition that works best for me at the moment
is just like yours.
"To regain or get back that which has been
lost due to illness or injury."
Recovery for me has to be based in the present,
the here and now. I must look at the past----
but it's dangerous to stare.
I want to of plan on a great future. Planning on
a lousy one seems to work all too well. To be
able to live successfuly I need hopes and dreams
Life really sucks without them. But I can't
live in that imaginary world; after a while
they lock up people like that, like me.
I done been there.
For me recovery focusses on living in the
present, being able to leave the past behind and
learning to believe in the possiblity of a future.
What I have to watch out for is an obsession
with Revenge, an irrational attempt to
change the past or a fantasy of punishment set in
Sure a little daydream of sticking
the abusers head in the toilet and repeatedly
flushing is a good catharsis for me.
I have to watch out not to become fixated on it,
since that puts the focus back on the
offender. He's already had free rent in my life
for too long. After becoming painfully
aware of the devastation of the past, it is
the process of recovery that leads me forward and
away. Revenge takes me back to the past, to the
offender, to what is wrong with everything,
to doling out punishment.
I know I'll be first in that line.
That is not my primary purpose.
Wow, thanks so much. You guys are brilliant.
Tom, you've got a lot to say, guy. Can you
believe it when I say I want, I need to hear it?
An overly stimulated fellow MS lycanthropist,