There are many relationships that have resulted in pain, frustration and devastation from the harmful effects of sexual abuse. My heart reaches out to you in mourning the loss of a loved one. We struggle to recover here, and our dear supporters struggle with us.
I personally want you to know how important taking good care of yourself is as you move into this part of your life. You are a good and caring person who has been overwhelmed with the acting out and erratic behavior of a confused, hurt and panicked survivor. This does not mean you cannot grow, learn to create appropriate boundaries and enjoy a healthy meaningful relationship again. It may not be the first thing to do tomorrow, but it is something you can work toward at your pace.
Please consider recovery groups in your area such as CODA or Al-Anon. Find you in the midst of this pain, and heal from this hurt.
I am rooting for you ltlkty,
MaleSurvivor Moderator Emeritus 2012 - 2014