Guilt used to eat me alive. My guilt was so complete that I felt it was partly my fault, while being raped next to another child, that I could not help them in any way. I can hear her crying now when I bring up those memories. But that is how screwed up our heads get because of this crap.
Get rid of the guilt.
My guilt told me I deserved everything I was doing to myself. My mind was trying to kill me.
Thankfully I "crashed and burned" with alcoholism and found AA.
I have no guilt about what happened. I have not one regret about anything in my past. If I could go back and change things, I wouldn't, because I like who I am now. I know where I am, I know the score, and I know where I am going. I am where I am now BECAUSE of my past. Don't know why, but here I am.
Edited by quasimodo (09/05/12 02:52 AM)