Lee - i appreciated reading your story here. and - yeah - i prefer to post in forums where there is a response possible - so no harm done.
welcome to this community - lots of good guys here that help make the journey a bit easier - or more tolerable at least.
your experiences will help many, i am sure. hope you also find some affirmation and validation for yourself here, too!
"the scariest thing about abuse of any shape or form, is, in my opinion, not the abuse itself, but that if it continues it can begin to feel commonplace and eventually acceptable."
- Alan Cumming, "Not My Father's Son"