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#405272 - 07/30/12 10:21 AM I saw myself (Triggers?)
traveler Offline

Registered: 02/07/06
Posts: 4182
Loc: resettling in NE Ohio
I saw myself
at age eleven,
laid out before them:
pale, cold, and still,
just like Huck Finn
at his own funeral,
while everyone there
felt grief and remorse.

I saw myself,
awkward and gawky,
thirteen years old
and hating myself,
floating in bathwater,
dyed a deep crimson,
with the tell-tale razor
dropped on the floor.

I saw myself
again at sixteen,
sprawled in the lawn,
impaled by the roses,
a high open window
silvered by moonlight,
while my blood bloomed
on the flowers and grass.

I saw myself,
then over thirty,
driving my junker
too fast on the highway,
“losing” control,
on icy pavement,
hitting an overpass.
Over and done.

I see myself,
older and wiser,
now a survivor
plotting to heal.
My secret strategies
are all for the future;
no more surrender -
I will to live.


Edited by traveler (07/30/12 10:23 AM)
How long, LORD, must I call for help, but you do not listen?
Or cry out to you, “Violence!” but you do not save?
Why do you make me look at injustice?
Why do you tolerate wrongdoing?...
Therefore the law is paralyzed, and justice never prevails....
Habakkuk 1:2-3

#405326 - 07/30/12 11:29 PM Re: I saw myself (Triggers?) [Re: traveler]
MarkK Offline

Registered: 04/02/07
Posts: 2652
Loc: Denver, CO
Number of WoR's attended: 3
Last attended: 2011


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