good work with the honesty! we all need each other. we've got your back, man.
rest assured that there is almost nothing that you can say here that is motivated by honesty and a desire to heal and connect (as long as it is not abusive of others) that will get you condemned or shunned.
you are a wounded soldier - like the rest of us. we love and support you.
carry on. you are on the right road. don't stay away too long.
How long, LORD, must I call for help, but you do not listen?
Or cry out to you, “Violence!” but you do not save?
Why do you make me look at injustice?
Why do you tolerate wrongdoing?...
Therefore the law is paralyzed, and justice never prevails....