Good thoughts Cant Remember,
I have similar issues. I have been told I am a Sexual Anorexic. Like the food anorexic is afraid of food, the sexual anorexic is afraid of the sex in all its complexities.
Lots of shit happens with CSA!
I wish the best for your situation and that you may find answers and hope. I would be glad to hear from you, or bcl092, in a PM (private message) if you want to talk about anything.
take care you two
If you cannot control what happens to you, you can control your attitude toward what happens to you, and in that, you will be mastering change rather than allowing it to master you.
~ adapted from: Sri Ram