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#398368 - 05/25/12 02:16 AM worth it?
traveler Offline
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one of those times when i wonder if healing is worth it...

last night was graduation. "my kids" are leaving. it is good and normal and healthy and i am so proud of them!

!!!BUT!!!

- it hurts like hell. like the Tinman in the Wizard of Oz, i say, “Now I know I've got a heart because it is breaking."

for decades i denied, repressed, refused emotions. i built a wall around my heart and had an armed guard and a huge sign saying "KEEP OUT!"

this is the first time i have felt this intense emotion when parting with people i care about. even when my own birth children went away to college - i didn't feel this much.

i guess that this is evidence that i have progressed and am really getting in touch with my emotions, but as the Wizard said, “I think you are wrong to want a heart. It makes most people unhappy. If you only knew it, you are in luck not to have a heart.... Hearts will never be practical until they can be made unbreakable."

they tell me it's good - but i gotta wonder if it's worth it?
Lee cry



Edited by traveler (05/25/12 02:28 AM)
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"My experience has shown me that I all too often tend to deny that which lies behind, but as I still believe, that which is denied cannot be healed." Brennan Manning, "All is Grace - A Ragamuffin Memoir"

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#398417 - 05/25/12 08:43 PM * [Re: traveler]
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Edited by Smalltown80sBoy (04/28/13 04:27 PM)

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