Hi Dan, and welcome back to Male survivor
Your thread reminded me to parabola about lost son from New testament who returned home after wasting his fortune. So in same spirit we should have feast celebrating your return here.
I hope that you'll find your friends from WOR and connect to them. It is never late for that!
I'm sorry to hear that you have some problems regarding intimacy and isolation. Those are maybe our biggest problems. I hope that we can exchange experience and give some support each other on these topics.
Please don't be too hard to yourself, we survivors are perfectionists and we are sometimes the most rigid to ourselves.
Share with us as much as possible.