Andrew, Im glad you are able to express your anger at your abuser. I hope this is a healing experience for you. I also go through some very intense faizes of anger and that is alot better than the internalized anger that turns into such deep depression. I support you all the way!!! go after the bastard, that hurt you. He deserves to know how much damage he did. Just make sure you take care of yourself and dont do anything that will harm you with the law or anything like that, you have been through enough pain. Sometimes the person who abused us is incapable or unwilling to acknowlege all the damage they did. They are F**cked up in the head. They are sometimes sociopaths unable to relate with the victim. When I confronted my stepfather,when I was 17, after being abused by him from age 3-14. The bastard said I should get over it, and not make such a big deal about it. I remember he said"I havent molested you in a long time so get over it" The son of a bitch, actually had this evil look in his eye, like if he was talking to a piece of meat he had just used and then thrown away. That was it' I went off on him, I told him what a f**cking animal he is and how he is sick in the head. At that momoent I realized I would never get an apology or any sort of admission he had harmed me or did anything wrong. I stared thowing all his clothes out of the closed and told him to get the hell out of the house or I would kill him. I still remember the look of suprise and fear on the bastards face. I guess he thought I was still the helpless victim he tried to groom into his personal sex boy. All this while my weak mother just stood their and told me not to make such a fuss because the neighbors would find out! I dont give a F*ck about the dambed neighbors what about what this bastard did to me and my siblings, I called the cops on him and by the time they got their the bastard had left. Eventually they cought up to him and he went to jail for a while only after molesting more children.
Take care of yourself and be ready for the bastard to be in denial over what he did, sometimes we will not get that we want to hear from these bastards, after all they are abusers and are usually not the type to admit they did anything wrong. Good luck my friend and you can Private mail me if you need, anytime.
Take care, Dan