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#39266 - 05/02/01 11:55 AM confused

i'm a 34 year old boy trapped in a man's body. the abuse began when i think i was 11 and continued to around 15. i don't know for sure. it was by an older brother and he did the same thing to one of my sisters. right now i'm married and have 2 sons and i'm trying to make sense of everything. i don't know if i'm gay or straight. all of my choices in life seemed to have been dictated to me by my family. i'm tired. i need to find me. i know i'm worthy of being loved but that means that i have to trust-i can't do that. i feel alone. i read these other stories and i cry inside. i understand the pain, agony and loss of self. i need to talk to other men who know what i'm going through. maybe we can get through this nightmare.

#39267 - 05/02/01 12:56 PM Re: confused
michael Joseph Offline

Registered: 03/11/01
Posts: 2719
Loc: Virginia
Email me I am willing to talk, I have some extra time right now anyway.

I know it gets hard to deal with, I have been there over and over again. I am going through up and downs. Take care.

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#39268 - 06/28/01 03:58 PM Re: confused

I've just stumbled onto this site. Charguyus, I understand your quandry. I am in EXACTLY the same situation. I too am married (13 years now) with a daughter, and question my "identity/orientation" (how's that for pollitically correct). I'd really like to chat with you sometime; if you want, drop me an email.


#39269 - 06/28/01 04:55 PM Re: confused
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Registered: 04/21/01
Posts: 211
Loc: cincinnati, ohio
Saw your sounds like we are experiencing many of the same thoughts and feelings as you....I left you an e-mail before but did not hear back from you....please e-mail me so we can talk.....I hope I can help you and I hope you can help name is Michael e-mail is to hear from you soon.....michael


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