I've always found this time of the year difficult but after two years of therapy should I still be feeling this bad?
Mark, my friend, it's not a question of whether you "should"
be or not. You are
. There is no "should." You are who you are, only you went thru exactly
what you went thru. No doubt you are doing the best you can do in your circumstances. You are quite a survivor!
I've read post's on another site where a three year old child ask their perp to stop, I was 17 and 19 when I was abused and I never asked him to stop!!!! What the hell was I thinking?
Brother, you were having brain surgery which is definitely very traumatic, and you were paralyzed following a trauma, an accident. If you were able to think at all, much less get any words out, it would be almost unbelievable! And if you did,
what were you going to do to stop him in that condition anyway?
Mark, take it easy on yourself. That jerk has hurt you enuf already, to say the least!
Of course it still feels bad! And thinking about not having the girl who first comforted you after such unspeakable horrors...
Yes, Mark. Cry, grieve, feel the pain--and you will be able to climb out from under it, and live!
You are a survivor, and you will thrive!
Take it easy and take care.