Is it normal to think adult men want to do this to you when you're 10?
Normal for whom?
I don't think it's that abnormal for those who survive CSA at a young age. If nothing happened, no it's not in the norm, however it's not a certain sign that there is blocked out CSA but it is certainly a Red Flag.
To me a Red Flag means to stop, look, listen and investigate and then investigate more until I figure out what it's all about.
You are starting to question memories in your life brother and that is a good thing because it means that on some level you are ready to found out the TRUTH!
Keep asking questions to yourself and also this board. The truth is brother, from my young tart days I can't think of a boy I boinked who wasn't molested to some degree. I have talked to my T about this a little because I swear we were a magnet for each other.
I only had sex with the one adult by choice, but I did WANT to have the experience of willingly being with an adult and wanted it to be safe and a non rape event. Remember, to me rape=violence. Any adult having sex with a child is still technically rape but I was looking for a non violent event with an adult. Yes I did find certain adult men a turn on as a boy. Partly it's due to the fact that I am truly gay but like my T said it was partly due to the fact that I was trying to right a wrong and it was also a learned behavior wanting to be with an adult as a child.