Keep on posting man. It is good for the soul and helps the mind deal with the whole CSA thing.
I hear you. I feel your pain. Mine is just the same at times. But it has gotten better with a good T, good people here, and a good support system. I hope you have all of those too.
Take care and keep coming back. Life can be lonely, but it is a safe and comforting place for me. I hope it is for you as well.
If you cannot control what happens to you, you can control your attitude toward what happens to you, and in that, you will be mastering change rather than allowing it to master you.
~ adapted from: Sri Ram