This is my first post. I don't know if I consider it abuse but it leaves me feeling confused and weird. In a nutshell, a girl who was approximately 12-13 used to take me in the forest and show me porn magazines. I was only 9-10 years old so I was curious to see it. Then she would get me to act out certain sexual acts from the magazines and do other stuff. She had me give.her oral and would do.it me. She would touch me all over and get me hard and then full intercourse would happen. She was definitely in control of everything. I didn't understand the full ramifications of what we were doing. I was shy to have her see me naked but I didn't know.how.to say no.