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#380912 - 12/28/11 07:57 PM I must be getting well
whome Offline

Registered: 05/07/11
Posts: 1743
Loc: Johannesburg South Africa
Hi All

I remember starting on this site in May this year, a broken and hurt man, having just watched the 200 men on Ohpra. The bravest 200 men I have ever encountered.
Over the ensuing months, I had times where I thought I would die, times when I thought my Wife of 20 years had had enough, and would throw me out.
There where times where I thought I would never heal.
There where times when I thought I knew it all, and times where I was reminded that I did not know anything.

But the one thing that remained constant, was my desire each and every morning to beat this demon.
Today I spend less and less time on MS, I read less posts, I ignore the really negative posts, and am interested only in the positive.

I think that this is progress. Previously I read posts on forgiveness, and thought they were mad, today I encourage it. One of my favourite saying is someone's signature and its " Bitterness is a poison pill I swallow to make the other person disappear" I love saying, it has taught me a lot.

So today, as I go on a short holiday, I pray for all on MS that they awake each morning with the desire to heal, the desire to let go of the hurts of the past, and the desire to look forward to a great future and a new you.

There is greatness in each and everyone of us, let us all seize this fact and change the world.

Heal well all
HAPPY 2012 %#@*>^$%><&$!@#~`*

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#380927 - 12/29/11 12:04 AM Re: I must be getting well [Re: whome]
Incognito Offline

Registered: 04/18/11
Posts: 105
Congrats on the improvements in your life!

"If you're willing to carry the weight, feel the strain, push past the pain, and give more of yourself than others expect of you, the world is yours." - Dave Tate

#380933 - 12/29/11 01:15 AM Re: I must be getting well [Re: Incognito]
RollerCoaster Offline

Registered: 10/23/11
Posts: 47
Loc: PA, USA
I am no one to judge as I am a total rookie, but the tone of your email certainly looks upbeat and positive. Thats definitely a sign of healing and I love the oozing confidence in your post. Great going bro, you are my hero ! Keep nailing this demon, until its last breath ;-) ... Have a great vacation.

#380942 - 12/29/11 03:57 AM Re: I must be getting well [Re: RollerCoaster]
ACLover94 Offline

Registered: 06/19/11
Posts: 40
Martin, ive been here with you, about the same time...And I am so proud to hear you speak like this, brave and fierce...keep it up my brother...I too have to say that I am feeling pretty darn good lately...I have before, but not as good as this and I will rememeber your words...they will give me the extra strength to put this bullshit to rest!

Either way...I'm determined...with a capital 'D"

Peace and love
Happy New Year!




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