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#378030 - 12/04/11 04:34 AM I hate dealing with it
max52 Offline

Registered: 05/09/11
Posts: 33
Loc: usa
I was doing pretty well, I had quit smoking, thought I had things under control.
But, it won't go away, as aboy I was sent to what turned out to be a reform school. I commited no crime, I was 13 and was kicked out of school for realy bad grades, so I found my self at this place, I was there 2 weeks when the 12 yr. old in the bunk under mine got raped.
The same guy(who was 15) took my hand and rubbed it on his penis, other guys even bigger would grab my butt, even stick there finger in it through my clothes.
I was there for 18 mos.
I am reminded of it all of the time, T.V. shows, this Penn State scandle, it all brings back memeries, it makes me angry and I find myself wanting to cry, I am 59 now, what will it take to just get rid of this?

#378033 - 12/04/11 04:50 AM Re: I hate dealing with it [Re: max52]
limit Offline

Registered: 04/23/11
Posts: 131
try therapy

#378036 - 12/04/11 04:54 AM Re: I hate dealing with it [Re: max52]
creyes99 Offline

Registered: 11/15/11
Posts: 66
Loc: Indio, CA
Limit's right, it really helps.

#378049 - 12/04/11 05:48 AM Re: I hate dealing with it [Re: max52]
phoenix321 Offline

Registered: 09/26/11
Posts: 912
Loc: USA, FL
Forgiveness is all I found that worked. They can steal everything else but that.


A guy opens the front door and sees a snail on his doorstep. He picks up the snail and throws it across the street in a neighbor's yard. A year later, the guy opens the front door and the same snail is on his doorstep. The snail says, "What the f*ck was that about?"

#378065 - 12/04/11 09:57 AM Re: I hate dealing with it [Re: phoenix321]
whome Offline

Registered: 05/07/11
Posts: 1739
Loc: Johannesburg South Africa
Hi Max 52

Abuse is abuse, and you are hurt and show all the traits of a survivor.
The first step is to realize that you are not alone, the second step is to talk about it,(what you are doing now)
the third step is to process and work through it, and lastly to carry on living a life of victory.

Having a therapist will help you process, so it is an good idea.

You have a lot of support here, so talk a lot, read a lot, and ask a lot of questions.

Heal well

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