Well it's weird, how I don't come here that often now, but sometimes I feel compelled to call in and see what's happening.
It was strange seeing my words from over 5 years ago!
For those of you that are newer to the site, you won't be aware that I was a total wreck when I first came here!
I actually once stood on a high bridge with the intention of jumping off into the water below! I didn't, because the water was deep, and I knew I would start swimming anyway - a bit like life really!
In that 5 years (to cut a long story short), I complained to the police in Oct 2004, achieved a conviction in March 2007. Was groomed/abused way back in 1969.
Since then I've had a fairly serious car crash (Dec 2007) which has resulted in several surgeries (I'm mobile and mostly active now, but still have some problems).
I have mostly good days now, with some not so good, but I never give in! I could easily have been killed in the crash, but I wasn't, and that makes me see things a little differently! Every day is a bonus to me, and I have another birthday on the day of the crash!
I keep going, because I can. I keep going because that way I win! I still like to create things, and my plants are the best this year they've ever been. Other people comment on how good they look. My guitar playing still leaves something to be desired though (and I haven't given up on that either).
When I had my crash, it was only then that I realised how much many people actually cared about me! I never really thought they did before then! Another reason to keep going!
Best wishes and strength to those who need it to keep going now!
I found much strength here!
*Never look down on anybody unless you're helping them up.
*I was seeking a way of expressing my anger - I found hope!
*There are many battles before the war is won! It can be won!