3 weeks since the secret was revealed.
He's also been inappropriately (given the circumstances) and overly interested in sex with me. I'm so vulnerable and weak. After a week of sleeping 1-2 hours and not eating, I'm a vulnerable mess. I feel like I'm being manipulated into sex. I feel like he plays into "I'm hurt, look what's happened to me". He has manipulated me into sex with him. He's obsessed with Oral sex with me. I feel objectified. When I've questioned him, he keeps saying how he's expressing how much he loves me. I don't feel loved. I feel used. If that makes sense. In the past oral sex has never been such a huge focus. It seems now thats all he wants. It feels like a hunt or a quest of some sort. He says things like, I want YOU to feel pleasure. This is for YOU. But it doesn't feel that way. He is not interested in intercourse. He doesn't want me to touch him. He even looks different when we're together. I don't recognize his face. It's a darker look, transfixed almost.
I started thinking he has re-directed his sexual addiction here at home, with me. Because he outted himself, and promised never to cheat again. I was thinking he still acting out. Just acting out here.
Is this crazier than I'm thinking or am I just paranoid? Am I seeing ghosts everywhere. I'm so confused. I'm out of my depth.
God is my teacher, Jesus my comfort and the Holy Spirit my protector.
I AM Listening...
Thank you Mother Mary.
Pray the Rosary every day. http://www.comepraytherosary.org/
I BELIEVE IN HER PROMISE.