I feel this way now Allen. For the first time I've listened to the recordings and watched the videos. One recording is of AA-11's Betty Ong reporting that my dear Karen was stabbed.
I took all this in for the first time and it actually tore my health to shreads. I have continuous migranes and nausea as a probable result.
So, I'm with you. I can't see it even after 10 years.
I may stay at home on 9/11 even though a piece of a WTC tower will be opened-up here in NH during a 9/11 ceremony. I think I may make a video as I find it to be very theraputic