You are no more expendable than I am. Sometimes I feel that way but that's a matter of self-perception which stems from experiencing abuse, which I am working on. The fact that I am still here to work on it speaks to my resiliance as a survivor, which I am learning to be proud of, as you should be too.
I will say though that powerful perpetrators like you mentioned do view their victims as expendable. I see it as a form of psychopathy, where despite their power they lack the ability to form normal human connections or to see other human beings as anything other than objects to use. Therefore the problem is not us, its them. While I resent that I have to live with the after effects of what my perp did to me I am learning to keep some balance by reminding myself everyday that I am a good person, which obviously not everyone in this world can honestly say about themselves. Just some thoughts for today. JS
Love is better than anger. Hope is better than fear. Optimism is better than despair. So let us be loving, hopeful and optimistic. And we’ll change the world.