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#367615 - 08/07/11 05:05 PM why is therapy making it worst?
robertpattinson Offline

Registered: 06/18/11
Posts: 15
I didn't tell about any of the abuse until I was 18. I still have issues with accepting it relationships with them low self esteem etc. And I wanted to talk through it. But it seems it's givien me dreams and nightmares of them and not just them others like my grandpa or cousin. I didn't even remember that she had done anything to me. She has actually been a person I stayed close to. And she's always been a friend an ally. Now to find out she also did it's even harder to deal with. I feel like talking about just adds wounds I didn't even know I had.

the shame of what's happened is unimagineable. Pretending it never happened just seems to make it worst.

#367620 - 08/07/11 07:08 PM Re: why is therapy making it worst? [Re: robertpattinson]
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Registered: 05/07/11
Posts: 1743
Loc: Johannesburg South Africa
Hey Robert
Sory about the hurt.
One thing I have tried to accept is, when it hurts I'm healing. If I'm not hurting I,m not healing.
It is the nature of the beast, that as we talk about and delve into the csa, we awaken memories that we have to deal with.
Our minds will not give us more than we are able to handle at any one time.

Heal well Brother and you are in our thoughts


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