Dan, I recently cut everyone but a few out of my life, a few which now know my struggle, and my trauma.
I tried to justify my alienation and isolation; so I can more easily come to terms with my feelings of shame that I hid from my family without them judging.
Now that I'm in therapy I realize I didn't explain myself, and just disappeared.
I realize I need a strong support network, and I need to select this network better than before.
But they are my family.
I felt it was necessary for me to heal.
I struggle to relate to their lives. Though I lived my life beside there's; I felt so alone.
I've found help, and am focused on healing.
I've finally been able to tell someone "everything", and not felt shame.
Knowing other men struggle with the same feelings and situations gives me strength.
Together, we can be the family we've yearned to have understand us.