Only a kid
Don't focus on so much, you'll overload your brain. SMALL steps. phone the girl you spoke about, try a date, a movie, a dinner. treat here like a queen, and see what the experience brings.
Don't set yourself up for failure, all you are doing is going on a date, no expectations, no sex, no long term out come.
Then next time ask one of those out of your league ladies at work to go to dinner with you, Talk to them treat them like queens, pull out the chair, open the car door, order them a special treat, and don't expect anything. just show them what a gentleman you are.
What you are doing is building your own confidence and your own self esteem. If you feel you are overweight, work on that, work on your humor, and work on your listening skills, ask these girls about them selves, don't judge just listen.
Slowly take things one step at a time and build your own self esteem.
Remember that people cant see the fact that you were abused in your eyes, so you don't have to hide from the world, but instead the world should say watch out here comes only a kid!!!
Dont put so much pressure on your self, you are young, a survivor, HAVE FUN.
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