I don't find plusure in welcoming anyone here, but please find comfort in the fact that you are not alone.
I can relate with your posting, from my own sexual abuse in my life time and the way I've came to accept it into my life today. I didn't do it all on my own because for years I've learn surivial skills as a victum but had to have help, some of the times. For mental health, in my recovery as a survivor I would talk with a psychologist and with an advocate or support and to say the least for education.
well enuff of my talk,
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