I watched TV for a while this evening. That certain chef program came on. I can't mention his name. I was able to endure watching it longer tonight than I ever have before. He even looks like my perp. The one who tortured me when I was 12. I watched him using the same techniques with others in the kitchen as my perp used with me. He comes in as the strong man, the man who knows it all. He destroys the confidence of the boy by saying degrading things and by slight of hand and innuendo. A short time later some of them are in tears. He has the urge to dominate, to control, to degrade, to destroy, to rape. He is skilled in his craft. I think he knows exactly what he's doing. He delights in destruction.