Brothers, in recovery.
I have "hit" a patch of personal despair that I have never known and goes very deep.
I am very sorry that you are suffering like that.
I am having lots of horrible "memories". I hate going to sleep at night. Anyone else experience this?
Donnie, I know you went through some terrible stuff. I hope that you have a therapist who will help you to talk that out so that you can resolve some of the hurt. The idea is that if we can talk it out and share it with another person that you don't have to bear that within yourself. I know you can never change what happened, but it doesn't always have to hurt so bad.
I was hearing "voices" up until just a very days ago. Anyone else experience this?
Just a suggestion: Hearing voices is a diagnostic criterion for DID. Have the people who are helping you considered this? I know there are other guys who come here to MS who have DID and who hear voices. I will leave it to them to identify themselves. DID is actually capable of resolution whereas some other conditions are not.
The way that I have experienced this as far as I can remember is in arguing with myself. It's as though I'm before a judge who is accusing me and I'm trying to answer him, but all within my own mind.
I abandoned work as I was NOT feeling well. I am scared as I am not sure of my next step(s).
I'm so very glad to hear from you. I hope I can work with you in whatever way to help you resolve this situation.