Of course it's your way and it doesn't suck
I know what you mean about typing here and feeling the echo of the keys. I often find myself longing for someone to say they "get it." No one is ever going to understand perfectly, but I wish that some of the people in my 3D world could "get it" as well as you guys do...although I wouldn't wish sexual abuse trauma on anyone.
Earl, you are not small here. I know a lot of survivors, including myself, look up to you & think you have a lot to give & a lot of experience to share. I haven't been recovering from rape trauma for nearly as long and it is because of you and the other men here that I am not completely isolated and alone.