There's no shame in getting a GED and enlisting in the Air Force you should feel pride in doing both! So many of us guys with CSA/SA way too often struggled with learning. We experienced too many obstacles as barriers to our educations. In my case I missed a lot of school during the years of the abuse. The result was that I missed out on a lot of learning, there were huge chunks missing from my education. When I was present I was so anxious and dissociative that I continued to miss out on even more.
I wonder if our mothers knew each other, they seem at least to be kindred spirits. My mom loved me in her way, but was damaging too. I once told my CSA T that I thought that Mom had probably done the best she could and the T said "Perhaps, but there are times when a persons best just isn't good enough!" I was sorta shocked at her saying that, but it made sense and it put some of the responsibility for not protecting me right back onto who it belonged to, back onto my mother.
In me, my mom raised a classic underachiever, I'll bet we could tell each other some stories! I understand where your coming from, I'm with you.
"It's never too late to be what you might have been."
"You cannot find peace by avoiding life."