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#356509 - 03/14/11 01:10 PM strange
bluejay Offline

Registered: 02/23/11
Posts: 51

#356511 - 03/14/11 01:28 PM Re: strange [Re: bluejay]
Anthony39 Offline

Registered: 02/15/07
Posts: 345
Loc: Montreal, Canada

Last night I broke down. I thought i was doing better, that I was headed in the right direction. I have been coming here and meeting great survivors who beat some pretty big odds and yet keep a positive attitude, take the time to listen and help others.
I find myself thinking why I'm fighting anymore. What's the point of all this.
Alone!! yeah I know what you mean Jay. It sure feels that way.
Overwhelming feelings of neediness, rage, despair, sadness. Putting a wall so fucking high that you don't let anyone in.


Look up and not down; look forward and not back; look out and not in; and lend a hand.
E. E. Hale

#356512 - 03/14/11 01:36 PM Re: strange [Re: bluejay]
RecoveryReady1 Offline

Registered: 12/05/10
Posts: 433
Oh yeah Jay......I felt this way for a long ...long time...
You don't need to suffer in solitude any more.....your awareness is getting stronger.....some times I think it feels worse because we become so aware of it and have less tolerance for it -
this motivates us to reach out and break the silence......It's just an illusion kept in place by the imaginary walls....Don't tolerate it.....reach out...when you do, you will see that there are lots of people just waiting for you....
You are not alone......and others do accept you ...mistakes and all...we have all made so many mistakes.....that comes with the territory.....that's what makes us the same......not different.....
That seems the truth to that to forward or weird?

All the best,


#356513 - 03/14/11 01:40 PM Re: strange [Re: Anthony39]
bluejay Offline

Registered: 02/23/11
Posts: 51


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