Hi Badger

Let me wade in with my 2 cents.
Sorry that you are going through this, it is truly tragic that you are in this situation.

I have just read of a new therapy that a Psychiatrist is using in the States called EFT. The reports thus far are very promising. It is a combination of western science, which I don't really trust, and eastern medicine. I helps to realign energies and open the flow of blockages in the meridians. Sounds like crap but trust me I have used a similar technique to get me over some stages in my life.

Another therapy you may consider to help you when you feel an attack coming is NLP. It is a great method to help calm the mind and take it to a per-programmed place.
If you want to know more. let me know and I will find the details.

Heal well

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