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#353026 - 02/07/11 08:43 PM Deep
Marinan Offline

Registered: 07/03/07
Posts: 330
Deep darkness in my spirit
Wailing death comes
From within not without
What has become of me
That I can't bleed anymore
What has become of me
That I can't breathe anymore
Deep darkness has touched my spirit
Corrupting what was never born
Into becoming that which should never be

#353093 - 02/08/11 11:20 AM Re: Deep [Re: Marinan]
mike13 Offline

Registered: 02/02/11
Posts: 419
Loc: California USA
Marinan thanks again for sharing this at RT last night. I amazed at how you were able to capture every thought every emotion that I was going through as I was waiting to die. I remember running the calulations in my head about how much blood I must have lost at the site of the attack. How much blood I must have lost while they were taking my body to the dumpster and I could see very well how much blood I had lost in the dumpster. I remember thinking this should do it. I should stop breathing in the next few moments and then it will be done. I wont have to live with what has become of me. Then I had to get all noble and worry about my mom, just kidding. I wonder if I knew inside that the request for those extra few minutes was going to cancel my reservation on the glory express. I have cursed myself for not dying for all these years, but now I am beginning to see the wisdom behind what has happened. Thanks for giving me perspective Mike


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