This sounds like a lot of survivors. I have come to the point where I've accepted that I cannot change what happened, so that I no longer concern myself much with how things could have been. Although painful, sad, and evil, its an irrevocable part of my history. Still, envy is part of humanity. I guess its a little saddening that others had 'better' childhoods, but this can't be helped. The way I choose to deal with it is to make my life each day a little better, and hopefully help someone else.
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