God cares and understands us all . you have a heart for him that is all he asked for do not worry about all the other stuff let go and let God worry about all of the other stuff . keep working this thing .
he loves you just the way you are he made you just the way he wanted stop focusing on yourself i hate to say it but this life is not all about us anyway .
it is about God working in and through us to build the kindom of God . everything seems to work itself out doing this . to much thinking about what others think and what others around us are doing and feeling .
be the light that God created you to be for others to see . stop condiming yourself for how God made you after all he made you right .
do you not think he knew what he was doing when he made you ?
he knew what he was doing and he knows your heart that is what matters. not anything else .
find peace knowing that the God of the universe made you perfect just the way he wanted to make you and that weather you feel you are gay or not he still loves you . as long as you are living your life for him than all the other stuff tends to work itself out and the focust shifts from you to him and his plan .
and just because others around you yes even in the church might look down on you EVEN THO THEY HAVE THIER OWN ISSUES and are not expressing them out loud , just know every one is dealing with something or some things and just because this issue has been pounded into everyones head like it is the only thing going on in the church and every where else does not make it any worse than other things.
it is not the feelings you are having that is the problem i am sure lots of people feel the same thing even if it is not for the same sex they still want to do things and think of things that are not pleasing to God but no one is talking about that now are they . so stop feeling so condemed when people every were are thinking the same things just in a differnt manner and they are no worse of than you.
we serve a perfect and holy God so all this is sin to him that is why Jesus came to take the sin from us and put it on himself because he knew that NONE are capable of being sinless . But Through Jesus Christ we are worthy .
he took all sin to the cross yes even this so called homosexuality . so give yourself a break
he died for you to have peace so have peace http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TWgeUrD4MHI