Sorry about your bad week-it sounds like you are getting some perspective on how this all works:
Escaping through alcohol and sex never really worked-and the costs were really more than I could bear-piling up all that remorse, shame, regret, and hopelessness on top of the issues I already had to deal with-what a lethal combination.
On the other hand, you have choices today and posting, turning to MS is a good choice. Don't isolate-reach out to those who share your struggles and are working to gain altitude in life.
We have to take responsibility for what we're not responsible for.
�It doesn't matter where you've come from,
It matters where you go" Frank Turner