These are great responses. I don't remember reading a book that would have influenced my memories. I remember reading several books, but I deliberately didn't read many personal accounts, only the clinical parts because I was worried I would be influenced. I wonder now if I doubt certain things because I don't remember them or because they are too awful to want to remember or I don't want to accuse any one either. I guess I should forget it, but it's hard to move on if I am living a lie and believing things that really didn't happen. I'm going to read all the advice given and really think about this. Thank you!