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#336052 - 07/14/10 03:41 PM Alone (dedicated to my dear brothers here on MS)
caesar14 Offline
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Registered: 04/13/10
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Loc: Patterson, North Carolina
Alone in the torment, lost in despair
Fighting these demons, gasping for air

Alone in the torment, void of trust
Falling in hell, a tool of his lust

Alone in the torment, losing ground
Trembling in darkness, making no sound

Alone in the torment, tortured in vain
Waiting to see him, cannot be sane

Alone in the torment, a creature of the lost
Surviving tomorrow will come at a cost

Alone in the torment, far away from here
Reliving it daily, filled with the fear

Alone in the torment, cannot break free
Wondering why this happened to me

Alone in the torment, stumble and fall
Now I can hear it, a saviors faint call

Alone no longer, good company now
My brothers in keeping have saved me somehow

Alone no longer, stronger than then
I thank you my brothers for pulling me in

Caesar
(Gary)

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#336079 - 07/14/10 11:57 PM Re: Alone (dedicated to my dear brothers here on MS) [Re: caesar14]
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Caesar (Gary)

That's beautiful poetry and full of meaning. Of course it tells us eloquently of agonies you experienced. I'm sorry for your agonies. I'm sure you have emerged a more loving person.

Thank you.

Allen

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#401084 - 06/20/12 08:48 PM Re: Alone (dedicated to my dear brothers here on MS) [Re: caesar14]
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Loc: California
Fantastic. Glad I came across this gem.

Is Gary still active on MS?
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#401171 - 06/21/12 01:55 PM Re: Alone (dedicated to my dear brothers here on MS) [Re: caesar14]
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#401303 - 06/22/12 03:15 PM Re: Alone (dedicated to my dear brothers here on MS) [Re: caesar14]
caesar14 Offline
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Loc: Patterson, North Carolina
Thanks for the comments guys. Yes I am still active, though not in a large capacity. I mostly read and seldom post anymore. I have had a hard road for a while but I have grown exponentially since becoming a part of MS. Thanks again for all your love guys.

Peace,
Gary aka Caesar14
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"The innocence you spoiled has found a way to live"
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#401423 - 06/23/12 10:23 AM Re: Alone (dedicated to my dear brothers here on MS) [Re: caesar14]
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Loc: georgia
Beautiful statement, excellent poem! I'm always happy when I hear of a brother's growth.
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