Thanks for hitting "Submit"-you are brave! Keep embracing the truth-it will set you free.
It was 2 decades before I could remember my abuse-during that time I have gotten sober from alcohol (age 20) and from sex addiction (age 37) -not easy, but reaching out for help and finding others I can confide it is VITAL to moving forward.
I am still piecing together what happened, but trying to maintain the focus on what I need to change today in my life. Still, there is a boatload of pain, denial, and hurt to work through.
Here is a link on addiction, pain and recovery you might get something out of: The Nature of Recovery
The longer I live, the more I see I cannot hold onto the lies.